The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Tuesday, 9 May 2017


Today once again confirmed that the Aam Aadmi Party will never learn its lessons and if its fall from grace continues at the same rate, it is going to be doomed soon.

The party has, literally, become a laughing stock. Instead of inspecting (and introspecting) on why it is losing polls (and losing humiliatingly), the party is busy in playing a game of political mudslinging.

And when it happened in Delhi, where it had registered two unexpected and stupendous victories in two years but lost its constituency by its second year in the office, when it saw a humiliating loss in the Delhi local polls last months, the message was clear and bold.

Shape in our shape out. Perform or perish. You have been given more than enough benefit of doubt. Now there is no time left.

But the drama that the whole party enacted in the Delhi assembly today, on once again blaming the EVMs for their electoral failures and therefore blaming the BJP led central government and the Election Commission of India, once again reinforced the feeling that the party is going to bust in the days ahead.

Because, it has its origins in people's expectations, in hopes of the crushed classes and masses and in silent but desperate cries of the millions of commoners who are blamed to live a cursed life in a society that is still learning how to treats its basic unit - those commoners only.

When the AAP formed a political outfit some five years ago, it was then a logical extension of the anti-corruption movement that had given this bunch of people credibility.

When it first faltered in February 2014, leaving Delhi, that had shown its trust on the party by giving it a stunning debut, to score bigger victories the 2014 parliamentary polls, it was still seen as an experimental streak of activists who were doing some soul searching on the political turf to get accustomed to its bylanes.

When the party registered even bigger a victory, that was almost absolute, in February 2015, in Delhi, it showed Delhi still saw its diversions as experimental aberrations.

But the fall from grace had started much earlier. The second term of the AAP has only removed those doubts that gave the AAP benefit of doubt.

In just five years, the AAP has become anti-thesis to everything it promised to stand for.

The first, and in fact, the only question, the question of life and death, that was and that is for the AAP, is whether it could walk the extremely fragile ground of expectations - where it had to fight against its internal and external elements who erred even slightly - because such journeys begin from home only.

And five years down the line, it is now an unquestioned fact that the AAP began with right credentials but with wrong intentions.

Had it not been so, it would not have converted so soon into a one-man party.

Had it not been so, it would not have thought of moving out of Delhi so soon, when it had no party base and structure in other states, before it could prove itself in Delhi, a must to say thanks to Delhi for reposing its faith in the party, in spite of its act of betrayal.

Had it not been so, it would not have tolerated even a single case of political impropriety and corruption, something that the party is plagued with now.

Had it not been so, it would never have accepted deserters and controversial persons from other parties, like it did in hordes.

Had it not been so, Kejriwal himself would have resigned or offered to resigns than seeing the likes Kiran Bedi, Shazia Ilmi, Prashant Bhushan, Mayank Gandhi, Captain Gopinath and many more leaving the party.

Had it not been so, it would not have become elitist and so VIP that it never cares for the people in real need even if you make desperate cries for help.

Had it not been so, Arvind Kejriwal would have resigned much earlier taking responsibility over the allegations of political impropriety, elitism, nepotism and corruption in the party, and it, in fact, would have raised his credibility.  

The party never sounded like it is reshaping and reinventing itself. It never looks life performing. It looks like a bunch of people who are always ready to engage in vocal fights, even on the slightest pretext and with utter disregard for the norms of civilized debates.

To sum up, they have become totally what they came to change. They have become so routine now that they look like just another political party. And when they are just another political party with no base and significant membership even in its birthplace, why would people care for it, why would people elect them?

This is the question that should haunt them. This is the question that should give them humility now. This is the question that should be at the core of their introspection. The scores of political and electoral losses should guide them. But today's drama in the Delhi assembly tells us that they have become so self-obsessed that they are not seeing their imminent fate ahead.