The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Saturday 31 December 2016


It is always between 'what changes from one calendar day to the next' and 'every day is a new day, a reservoir of hopes, a new opportunity to do, undo or redo things'.

And it is always better to go with the later one - every day is a new day and every day is a new 'you'.

Welcome 2017. Adieu 2016.

Reflect on. Retrospect. Introspect.

To reflect on the days ahead. To recharge yourself. With this symbolic milestone.

A symbolic milestone that comes every year.

It is for you to look at it - so why won't we do it in a positive, uplifting mode?  

Yes, life is very unpredictable - and so are its difficulties - with moments that let you down - with letdowns that lock you in an inertia.

But pragmatism tells to always look ahead - at the point beyond that letdown. It is only you who can break the run of inertia in your life - it is only you  who can win over the psychological entrapments that you have built around yourself.

Life's experiences should tell us that there is no substitute, no alternative, but to fight back - when life is dragging you down. Kill those jinxes that work to darken your path.

After all, apart from the people who really care for you and mind you, that includes a few handful (obviously including your family), who else stands with you emotionally (or even pratically)? Everyone else either has a fleeting attention to the problems your are facing or a 'knack' to exploit you more in your hours of crisis.

Anyway, that was about migrating from one year to the next - here in this case, from December 31, 2016 to January 1, 2017.

So..what has been my account of the year?

Diversified. Challenging. With my share of highs and lows. With my problems and with my triumphs. 

Like it happens in every life.

Like it happened the previous year. 

The many things that I had thought to do this year - some of them I could do - some of them are works in progress - and some of them are in advanced stages of ideation - and some of them are in still pipeline - something that always happens - in every life -  and I have learnt to enjoy it this way.

I continued the work to improve my personal website - which I treat as my web journal - and so far, I have been engaged with it looks and progress. I had taken the domain name in 2014 and the development with a professional touch, that began last year, continued this year unabated - and it was in sync with what I had thought when I was beginning 2016. Also, I started reworking on my other major website - BanarasCalling - and I hope to complete the first target in 2017. ToonJunction is another work in progress. Besides, there are some more 'upcomings'. 

While reflecting back on 2015 on December 31 last year, I had decided that I would devote more time to my books and would limit my online publishing activity to once a day. But this is one area where I need to push myself deeply now because the 2016 has been same on this front as 2015 was. 

Apart from that, it looks fine. Now that when I am reflecting back on 2016, on a December 31 exactly one year later, I am already more than a post a day - so far 431 posts this year in 365 days with this December 31 yet to go. So it will be like 2015 – with 432 posts. 

2016 was the fifth consecutive year for my writing and publishing pledge where I could maintain the discipline of writing or creating something daily - something that I had begun on October 15, 2011 - though with a random thought - with no long terms goals - but with 'every day' convictions.

I still have no goals. My driver is the sense of satisfaction that I draw after creating something from discipline of doing it daily, doing it regularly.

Yes, I regret that I could not work that much on my books as I had thought (there were similar thoughts on December 31, 2015), but what is relieving is that I know that why I could not do so and that I would do something concrete with them in the days to come (this is something I can lift from my last year's assessment).

Like I have been doing with my writing and with my creativity, I could do all that I needed to - with diversity as the leitmotif - in articles, in essays, in poetry, in images, in quotes, in fiction.

And yes, this year, I began on my unplanned travel plans and I can say, to my sense of peace, that they have contributed to my work. 

All that I have been through in 2016 I cannot write here and I should not write here, but while moving on to the next year with the symbolic importance of January 1 - of 'newness and hope' - I have no bad feeling about how 2016 passed - but good reasons to look ahead - and positive energy to work further.