The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Thursday 31 December 2015



It is always between 'what changes from one calendar day to the next' and 'every day is a new day, a reservoir of hopes, a new opportunity to do, undo or redo things'.

And it is always better to go with the later one - every day is a new day and every day is a new 'you'.

Welcome 2016. Adieu 2015.

Reflect on. Retrospect. Introspect.

To reflect on the days ahead. To recharge yourself. With this symbolic milestone.

A symbolic milestone that comes every year.

It is for you to look at it - so why won't we do it in a positive, uplifting mode?  

Yes, life is very unpredictable - and so are its difficulties - with moments that let you down - with letdowns that lock you in an inertia.

But pragmatism tells to always look ahead - at the point beyond that letdown. It is only you who can break the run of inertia in your life - it is only you  who can win over the psychological entrapments that you have built around yourself.

Life's experiences should tell us that there is no substitute, no alternative, but to fight back - when life is dragging you down. Kill those jinxes that work to darken your path.

After all, apart from your family, who else stands with you emotionally? Everyone else either has a fleeting attention to the problems your are facing or a 'knack' to exploit you more in your hours of crisis.

Anyway, that was about migrating from one year to the next - here in this case, from December 31, 2015 to January 1, 2016.

So..what has been my account of the year?

Diversified. Challenging. With my share of highs and lows. With my problems and with my triumphs. Like it happens in every life.

The many things that I had thought to do this year - some of them I could do - some of them are works in progress - and some of them are in advanced stages of ideation - and some of them are in still pipeline - something that always happens - in every life -  and I have learnt to enjoy it this way.

I successfully developed my personal website this year - which I treat as my web journal - and so far, I have been engaged with it looks and progress. I had taken the domain name last year but the development with a professional touch came this year - and it was in sync with what I had thought when I was beginning 2015.

While reflecting back on 2014 on December 31 last year, I had decided that I would devote more time to my books and would limit my online publishing activity to once a day. Now, when I am reflecting back on 2015, on a December 31 exactly one year later, I am already more than a post a day - so far 431 posts this year in 364 days with this December 31 yet to go.

2015 was the fourth consecutive year on my writing and publishing pledge when I could maintain the discipline of writing or creating something daily - something that I had begun on October 15, 2011 - though with a random thought - with no long terms goals - but with 'every day' convictions.

I still have no goals. My driver is the sense of satisfaction that I draw after creating something from discipline of doing it daily.

Yes, I regret that I could not work that much on my books as I had thought, but what is relieving is that I know that why I could not do so and that I would do something concrete with them in the days to come.

Like I have been doing with my writing and with my creativity, I could do all that I needed to - with diversity as the leitmotif - in articles, in essays, in poetry, in images, in quotes, in fiction.

All that I have been through in 2015 I cannot write here and I should not write here, but while moving to the next year with the symbolic importance of January 1 - of 'newness and hope' - I have no bad feeling about how 2015 passed - but good reasons to look ahead and positive energy to work further.  

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