Life & Beyond : EVEN IF I ALLOWED MY SOUL TO WANDER AGAIN INTO THIS CHAOS..

The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Friday 7 August 2015

EVEN IF I ALLOWED MY SOUL TO WANDER AGAIN INTO THIS CHAOS..

I was being inconsiderate or life was getting inchoate

I cannot say but thoughts were certainly not amorphous

Distant in the past or remote in the future or even now

Or the events of yesterday or the thoughts of tomorrow

Living was taking meanings of a transcendental abyss

Into chasms and alleys of days experienced and sought

I wished to run away, I tried to walk in, rereading them

But sense in words failed to register on a cerebral mess

I had travelled for so long in my thoughts, unrestricted

Going to the years so far that I had not kept the count

But I could not decide how to get out of this labyrinth

Even if I let my ‘self’ flow along the designs of the times

I could not see the elements that were there yesterday

Even if I allowed my soul to wander again into this chaos

All I could see walls all around which I had razed long ago