DECISION

Still living that day
Like yesterday
When I had decided
To sit, to think 
To go deeper inside
To make a life 
As I had thought  
To see the way ahead 

It is my decision
To remain unsettled 
And to live the feeling
Of the day 
As it was just yesterday
The day when I felt 
I was crying for an edifice
That never cared for me 

I needed to look back 
Into the time and its reasons 
To try again to find 
Why it was all so ambiguous 
I would ask for answers
But why there were none 
Yes, I still don’t have answers 
But I accepted it on that day

What I did in my past
Was about my decisions 
And I needed to go along
To find the reasons 
For my decisions ahead
To set my soul free 
To come out of ghettos 
That had cropped up 

The day when I realized 
My life was still mine 
Even if some decisions 
Were not in time 
When I felt
Even if I was wronged 
I could reconcile 
With what was dark 

The decision
That gave me life back 
The way I was
It asked to look back at 
The days in past 
Even if the darker ones
With reasons never given 
To find the light ahead 

I still live that day
Everyday 
To own my decisions 
Taking what all I say 
To reason further 
To settle 
On an unsettling path 
To see the way ahead 

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey - http://severallyalone.blogspot.com/