The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Friday 31 October 2014

THIS PAIN..

This pain,
I don’t know,
If it is still central to me
This pain, I live it,
As if
I don’t care for it anymore
My days go with it
I wake up and say goodbye,
To the life on a day,
Not realizing its absence,
Not feeling its presence,
This pain,
I have lived it for so long,
That it ceased to have,
An identity of its own
But I can’t say,
If this pain is still,
Indispensable for me..




















THIS PAIN.. 

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey - http://severallyalone.blogspot.com

Thursday 30 October 2014

IT WAS NEVER FROM THE HEART..

It was never for the soul
It was always for the pain

With duplicities defining the whole
With charades and their shows inane

The fragrance was always deceiving
The presence frequently compromised

With an intent bent on misleading
With a soul already dispossessed

Yes, it was never from the heart
Yes, it was always a face so concealed

 IT WAS NEVER FROM THE HEART..

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey - http://severallyalone.blogspot.com

Wednesday 29 October 2014

ENJOY WHEN YOU DON'T GET MUCH ATTENTION..

My reflections on life – in quotes (XC)


“Enjoy when you don't get much attention..
..but enjoy your own company..
..It is hard earned
..and the phase is a good hunting ground..
..for some hard earned wisdom.”


ENJOY WHEN YOU DON'T GET MUCH ATTENTION.. 

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey - http://severallyalone.blogspot.com

Tuesday 28 October 2014

BLACK MONEY: SC TAKES AWAY SHEEN FROM NARENDRA MODI & BJP GOVT

It was a big day politically for BJP but its prospect was marred by two hostile developments, the developments that BJP cannot take on head-on to defend itself or to attack to deflect the barrage of questions being shot on it.

Because, the developments owe their genesis to an agency criticising or attacking which will only harm the party.

Judicial activism has been a sore point for Indian politics and the politicians running the show but has come as the saving grace, the desperate ray of hope for millions of Indians cursed to be crushed under political apathy and corruption.

It is not that the judiciary is corrupt. It is. It is, in fact, highly corrupt at lower levels but when the judicial activism gets its flow from the apex judicial body, the Supreme Court of India, it sends a stern message to the erratic institutions and individuals, including the lower levels of judiciary. And this message is repeated every time, whenever the Supreme Court wields the Constitutional hammer to rein in the erring parties.

So, when the Supreme Court came down heavily, twice, on the Indian government today, criticising it for 'repeated' excuses on forming government in Delhi or conducting fresh elections and rapping it for 'selective' disclosure of the names of the black money account holders, the warning, the message was repeated again, but, with a severe symbolic blow to BJP time.

And it was not about the issue of government formation in Delhi. It was, as expected, about the black money issue.

So, even if the Supreme Court's direct question on 'how BJP would form the government' was embarrassing enough as BJP cannot form the government in Delhi with ethical and transparent means, it was humiliating and shocking when the apex court directed the BJP-led Union Government to submit the list of all overseas account holders by tomorrow, an issue on which the government had taken a U-turn on 'complete disclosure', going as far as to appeal to the Supreme Court to review its 2011 order that 'had sought complete disclosure' of information.

Monday 27 October 2014

DIWALI, MODI, GADKARI'S HELMET, MAHARASHTRA, BLACK MONEY AND MANY MORE. BUT THE FARM SUICIDE?

Diwali celebrations were in the air and are still continuing in many parts of the country. It made for news headlines and many shows. Understandable.

Narendra Modi was in Jammu & Kashmir on the Diwali day to spend time with the flood victims. He was there to show solidarity with the Indian soldiers in Siachen and the flood victims in J&K. He held high level meetings and announced fund from the Prime Minister's Relief Fund. It contributed to the second largest chunk of editorial planning on the Diwali day. Understandable.

The Maharashtra political scene was not clear on two fronts after BJP emerged as the largest party in the state but 23 short of majority mark of 245 in the Maharashtra assembly. One, who would be the Maharashtra chief minister from BJP. Two, what price BJP would extract from Shiv Sena to oblige the Thackeray party as the 'junior partner' in the alliance. The newsmaking treadmill has continued unabated since then. Understandable.

Black money issue has been an evergreen fodder and was making for news headlines midst the reports that the government was about to disclose names in the court. Though a damp squib so far based on today's developments, the issue has infinitely immense potential to oil the newsmaking machinery. Understandable.

Sunday 26 October 2014

LIGHTS WERE BRIGHTER. MOOD WAS HAPPIER.

My sister's 11 year daughter yesterday had her demand simple and direct - I needed to write a poem on Diwali, the festival of light, that she could present in her class. The demand had its genesis after she read what I was scribbling, a random poem in fact, had Diwali as one of its elements. My deadline was set for this evening with a strict warning that it had to be as per her 'standards', the elements of which were left to me to think over. And it was to be contemporary, reflecting the trends of the times, at her level.

I looked back on how it went - the day before Diwali, the Diwali day, and the day after Diwali - and tried to pick what kids love the most these days on a festival like Diwali - lights - colours - sweets and chocolates with chocolates getting upper hand on kids' preferences with big-bang chocolaceous promotions - and the schools running meaningful campaigns to aware the students of the harmful effects of traditional crackers and to promote the use of non-polluting crackers.

Well, I did my background work and this is what I have tried. And thankfully, she liked it. My kid. :) 

Lights were brighter..
Mood was happier..
Yes, it was the Diwali day,
Again after a year..

The colourful lights,
Enveloped houses..
The glow of earthen lamps,
Dotted the fences..

Chocolates then,
Added to the plate of sweets..
And more sweetness,
Added to the fun in the streets..

The family time was there,
And we were all together..
We had a green Diwali,
Smoother and safer..

No more noisy crackers,
No more polluting haze..
The blissful Diwali memories
For the coming days.. 

LIGHTS WERE BRIGHTER. MOOD WAS HAPPIER. 

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey - http://severallyalone.blogspot.com/ 

Saturday 25 October 2014

MY LEISURE IS QUITE ENGAGED TODAY..






Mouthful of tea by now cold,
And sip of warm icecream,
Amid Diwali’s blinking lights..
Air today has joy of laziness..
Eyes are sleepy,
Yet, sleep sounds detached..
Mind thinks something,
Then takes a stroll,
With no direction,
With nothing to care for,
Comes back home,
And stretches out on me,
With every colour,
In freshness of every taste..
To be, or could not be,
Is no more a question..
Time has stayed put,
After a long time,  
And my leisure is,
Quite engaged today..
Sipped tea today,
And had icecream as well,
And one more time is what,
My good sense demands.. 








MY LEISURE IS QUITE ENGAGED TODAY..

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey - http://severallyalone.blogspot.com/  

आज फुरसत मेरी काफी मसरूफ है..





ठंडी चाय की घूंट,
और गर्म आइसक्रीम की चुस्की, 
दिवाली की जलती बुझती लड़ियों के बीच
आज आलम में सुस्ती की मस्ती है
नींद आँखों में हैं , पर आती भी नहीं है
कुछ सोचता है मनफिर कहीं घूम आता है,
बिना मतलबबेपरवाह
और पसर जाता है ज़िस्म पर,
हर रंग के साथहर जायके की तरावट में
होने और ना हो पाने जैसा कोई सवाल नहीं
ये वक़्त ठहरा बहुत अर्सा बाद है,
और फुरसत मेरी काफी मसरूफ है
आज चाय पी, और साथ में आइसक्रीम भी,
और मन कह रहा है के एक बार और..






आज मेरी फुरसत काफी मसरूफ है..
©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey - http://severallyalone.blogspot.com/  

Friday 24 October 2014

DIWALI LIGHTS AND COLOURS

PHOTOGRAPHY

Lights: Colourful. Jovial. Meaningful. Social.
Colours: Dazzling. Thoughtful. Delightful. Inviting.
Diwali: The Spread of Light. The Reach of Colours.
Diwali: The Spiritual Symbolism of Light.
 Diwali: The Situational Pragmatism of Colours.
Diwali: When the Brightest Hour Comes of the Darkest Day.
Lights and Colours of Diwali: 
Let There Be Light. Let There Be Colours in Life. For All.


DIWALI LIGHTS AND COLOURS

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey - http://severallyalone.blogspot.com/ 

Thursday 23 October 2014

MAHARASHTRA ASSEMBLY ELECTION 2014: WHY SHIV SENA IS THE BIGGEST LOSER

Out of NCP, Congress and Shiv Sena, the biggest setback goes to Shiv Sena. It is the biggest loser in spite of registering growth, in seats and in vote share.

Many in the party would be rightly thinking, that just for 5 seats, they lost the 'senior ally' in Maharashtra tag, and that too, by a huge margin. Yes, they are the second largest party in Maharashtra assembly but their 63 seats are nowhere near to BJP's 122 seats, given the fact that BJP had been the junior partner of Shiv Sena in Maharashtra and was ready to do so even this time, agreeing to contest on lesser number of seats than Shiv Sena in the failed seat-sharing talks.

And BJP had reasons and rights to ask for so, because it was not too outrageous a demand. It had performed exceedingly well in the Lok Sabha elections cornering maximum number of Lok Sabha seats from Maharashtra that sends 48 members to the parliament.

In 2014 LS polls, BJP had won 23 seats with 27% vote share while Shiv Sena had 18 seats with 21% vote share. It was a considerable improvement for both. BJP had taken up its tally from 9 LS seats and 19% vote share in 2009 to 23 seats in 2014. Shiv Sena also did very well taking up its tally from 10 seats to 18 seats with 17% vote share in 2009.

But Shiv Sena's performance was not at par with its junior ally of the past, when seen in comparison with BJP's rising graph in the state, when it had to be surpassing what BJP achieved. Even in 2009 assembly polls, the junior partner of the alliance had won two seats more (46) than Shiv Sena's 44 seats. And when it simply outperformed everyone in the Lok Sabha polls registering 8% increase in vote share and over 150% increase in seats, it was right to expect for more.

Wednesday 22 October 2014

FACTORS AT PLAY IN MAHARASHTRA AND HARYANA: ANTI-INCUMBENCY

RELATED POSTS: 
MAHARASHTRA AND HARYANA VERDICTS AND MODI WAVE*
FACTORS AT PLAY IN MAHARASHTRA AND HARYANA: RULING PARTY/ALLIANCE CORRUPTION**

The discontent was telling. And it was the 'most' popular sentiment in the just concluded elections.

In Maharashtra, the ruling NCP-Congress combine was in government for 15 years, the last three terms. And like the political dispensation has been in India so far, even if it bring some development, it is riddled with corruption and allegations of corruption, as we saw in case of Sheila Dikshit's government in Delhi. Sheila was Delhi's chief minister for three terms, for 15 years.

Her government's track record on development was good, but was not free of corruption. And as the terms went on, from five years, to ten years, to fifteen years, the governance got riddled with more and more allegations of mammoth levels of corruption. Yes, the Delhi that we see today, that can claim substantial development during her terms, kept on oiling the wheels of corruption as well, that put even her under the scanner.

And Maharashtra could not claim even of this front - development (with corruption).

Coupled with political arrogance and insensitivity reflecting in political statements on issues of social relevance, the lack of development or rather the lack of balanced development created heaps of anti-incumbency against the ruling coalition government.

Then there were 'popular' measures adding to the anti-incumbency, the discontent, like verbose talks even if Vidarbha farm suicides continued unabated, like a chief minister on a Taj Hotel tour with a filmmaker just after the 26/11 terror strike, like the continued Maratha Vs Non-Maratha rants, like the consistently bad show of vital social indicators, like the Maratha reservation card and so on. The list seems pretty long.

The discontent had brewed to its full 'ripeness'.

Tuesday 21 October 2014

अश्रुओं में आये हुए इंद्रधनुष से..

शांति के रंग नेत्रों में 
अश्रुओं में आये हुए इंद्रधनुष से 
आकर आज थम गए हैं 
सोचते हुए अब तक के जीवन पर 
बातें करते हुए मानस से 
आत्मा के सामंजस्य में 
स्मृतियों का ये स्पंदन नवीन है 
इनका विस्तार कहता है  
सीखते रहना और चलते जाना 
जीवन की कठिनाइयों के साथ 
और संताप को जीते जाने की 
की निरंतरता के साथ 
अश्रुओं में आया इन्द्रधनुष कहता है 
धैर्य रखना और चलते जाना 
स्वार्थी सरोकारों से होते हुए 
उदासीन कोनों में रहते हुए 
और स्वयं को पुनः पा लेना 
उस जीवन पथ पर 
जो छल के आवरण में 
कहीं लुप्त हो गया था 
ये आनंद के अश्रु कहते हैं नेत्रों से 
समय अब आ गया है 
अब और विलाप नहीं..


शांति के रंग नेत्रों में, अश्रुओं में आये हुए इंद्रधनुष से, आकर आज थम गए हैं 
सोचते हुए अब तक के जीवन पर, बातें करते हुए मानस से, आत्मा के सामंजस्य में 
स्मृतियों का ये स्पंदन नवीन है, इनका विस्तार कहता है, सीखते रहना और चलते जाना 
जीवन की कठिनाइयों के साथ, और संताप को जीते जाने की की निरंतरता के साथ 
धैर्य रखना और चलते जाना, स्वार्थी सरोकारों से होते हुए, उदासीन कोनों में रहते हुए 
और स्वयं को पुनः पा लेना, उस जीवन पथ पर जो छल के आवरण में कहीं लुप्त हो गया था 
ये आनंद के अश्रु कहते हैं नेत्रों से, समय अब आ गया है, अब और विलाप नहीं

अश्रुओं में आये हुए इंद्रधनुष से..

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey - http://severallyalone.blogspot.com/ 

Monday 20 October 2014

FACTORS AT PLAY IN MAHARASHTRA AND HARYANA: RULING PARTY/ALLIANCE CORRUPTION

Though NCP has announced unconditional outside support to BJP for forming the government in Maharashtra, when Narendra Modi addressed NCP as 'naturally corrupt party' during campaigning in the run-up to the assembly polls, it was not without reasons.

Many high level politicians from NCP and Congress have been facing allegations of corruption and many had to resign. The list includes chief minister and deputy chief minister besides many other ministers and politicians.

The nation cannot easily forget the 'forced resignation', a hastily brought whitepaper to declare Ajit Pawar clean in the irrigation scam and his 'reinstatement'. It was all in bad taste.

And the 15 years of NCP-Congress combine rule had no dearth of such newsmaking headlines going deep on follow-ups.

Every year, if thousands of farmers are forced to commit suicide, in a so-called prosperous and industrialized state, Maharashtra, and if the state sees huge scams like the irrigation scam worth 70,000 crore, nothing but political corruption is to be blamed.

Similar was the case in Haryana.

A chief minister belonging to the main opposition party was out on bail sighting health reasons.  He was jailed after found guilty in a recruitment scam. He misused the terms of his bail to campaign in the polls and was sent again to jail by the high court.

The last chief minister was alleged of mammoth scales of corruption, though nothing proved yet. Family biases and nepotism ran deep in Haryana. And it is not always necessary that court verdicts drive the sentiments. In electoral politics, it is all about perceptions and the perception that corruption was running deep in Haryana had made deeper inroads in the psyche. 

The nation cannot easily forget the largesse shown to Robert Vadra and the witch-hunting against an honest official, Ahok Khema, for taking on Robert Vadra because he found his case violating norms.  The Hooda government went out of the way in clearing the deal for Vadra the nation saw it. And the nation also saw how defiantly the previous chief minister defended his acts perceived to be wrong and corrupt by the common man, the common man who sent him packing in the just concluded elections.

Allegations of widespread corruption and nepotism in Haryana civil services are a regular feature to decorate the news headlines. Then there were case studies like Gopal Goyal Kanda.  

And the electors were watching, in Maharashtra and Haryana, waiting for a chance, that they saw in promises of Narendra Modi, to bring the politics of development back on track, and to deal with political corruption. 

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey - http://severallyalone.blogspot.com

TWO OCTOBER 19 SUNDAYS: ARROGANT RAJ THACKERAY OF 2008 TO HUMBLED RAJ THACKERAY OF 2014

October 19, 2008, Sunday - Raj Thackeray was blamed for inciting the mob  of his partymen. He had been crying loud and talking provocative against the people he considered 'outsiders' in Maharashtra who had become parasitic on Marathi Manoos.

North Indian students in Mumbai to take a Railways recruitment exam were targeted and beaten by the members of Maharashtra Navnirman Sena (MNS) led by Raj Thackeray. It was one of the most ghastly acts of political 'goondaism' unleashed by MNS and its 'political' hooligans. Means of public transport including trains were hit hard. Raj Thackeray was shouting and sloganeering, from over the top. His brandishing of the 'Marathi Manoos' sword was getting harsher and harsher. And it was not just in Mumbai. The goons were operationalized in areas where MNS had impact and where MNS had wanted to create a constituency of its own exploiting the Marathi sentiments of the Marathi votebank. The arrogance and disregard to the democratic values were reeking.

October 19, 2014, Sunday - No one was  where Raj Thackeray was. It could not be said with 'a degree of newsworthiness' if he was sought at all yesterday, or even today.

Yes, he was making for headlines with his anti-North Indian rant while campaigning for the Maharashtra assembly polls. His interviews were carried where he spoke in his trademark ways that we had been watching since his separate advent on Maharashtra political scene after leaving his uncle Bal Thackeray and Shiv Sena he wanted to head after the senior Thackeray. His sky-high ego was brought down in a grand way yesterday when his 'style of politics' was rejected by the voters and his party was crushed mercilessly by the electorate. It was just yesterday when Raj Thackeray was being discussed as a possible kingmaker in Maharashtra politics. And today, he is staring at total annihilation of his political life with his party shrunk to just one assembly seat and a vote share of just 3%, down from 13 seats and around 12% voter share in 2009.

From an October Sunday in 2008 to an October Sunday of 2014 - on 19th of October - ironies of day, date and fate - that have forced Raj Thackeray to hide behind his shattered arrogance, the shield of which is already fragmented.

Raj Thackeray may not be able to hide in his own layer with such a fragmented shield of humiliated arrogance, but no one is seeking him either, at the moment, not even his Marathi Manoos, who played a significant role in hunting and humbling him down. 

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey - http://severallyalone.blogspot.com

Sunday 19 October 2014

MAHARASHTRA AND HARYANA VERDICTS AND MODI WAVE

Narendra Modi didn't campaign (or intensively campaigned) in the bye-elections held after BJP's high voltage performance in the Lok Sabha election 2014 that made it the first party to get majority on its own after 1985.

And BJP languished in these bye-elections - first in Uttarakhand, then in four states including Bihar, and then in 9 states including Uttar Pradesh, Gujarat and West Bengal.

The negative talking points against BJP's performance simply outnumbered  the few positives that it gained in these bye-elections with the later two important bypolls seen and analysed as 'acid test' or 'semi final' or 'test of the Modi Wave' before the upcoming assembly elections in Maharashtra, Haryana, Jammu & Kashmir and Jharkhand.

And BJP failed in these 'semi-final' sort of tests. Bypoll verdicts gave voices to everyone. Congress, JDU, Samajwadi Party, RJD, Shiv Sena, and other parties and the leaders of these outfits. They took on BJP with their customized reasons.

But the undercurrent was - assembly polls were different than parliamentary elections and BJP needed its allies. And the favourite talking point of the opponents was - Modi Wave was receding or had gone away, especially after poor show in Uttar Pradesh and Bihar bypolls.

But did Narendra Modi and the Modi Wave fail?

No. The Maharashtra and Haryana poll verdicts say so.

MAJOR TAKEAWAYS FROM MAHARASHTRA AND HARYANA ELECTION VERDICTS

Factors at play: Huge anti-incumbency + Ruling Party/Alliance Corruption + Modi Wave/Modi Factor + Promises of Developmental Politics.

Narendra Modi didn't campaign in bypolls: BJP languished. Modi campaigned extensively in assembly polls, inviting sarcastic remarks from his opponents and allies that he should have stayed focused on delivering in Delhi: BJP registers historic victories in Harayana and Maharashtra. It re-establishes the Modi Wave discourse as the central theme of political analyses on upcoming elections, Jammu & Kashmir and Jharkhand.

Maharashtra verdict: It was also about realignment of political affiliations and alliances in Maharashtra with new realities and changed circumstances and BJP has emerged as the clear winner. Parties contesting on their own to realize their political grounds - it had become politically imperative after decades of fighting together in alliances. It was to happen, sooner or later. But no Pankaja Munde or anyone like her, with being the daughter or son of a top politician as the only qualification, as the claimant of chief minister's chair please. In absence of an acceptable face to all, BJP may decide on Nitin Gadkari.

Out of NCP, Congress and Shiv Sena, the biggest setback goes to Shiv Sena. It is the biggest loser in spite of registering growth, in seats and in vote share. Many in the party would be rightly thinking now, that just for 5 seats, they lost the 'senior ally' in Maharashtra tag, and that too, by a huge margin. Yes, they are the second largest party in Maharashtra assembly but their 63 seats are nowhere near to BJP's 122 seats, given the fact that BJP had been acting as the junior partner of Shiv Sena in Maharashtra and was ready to do so even this time, agreeing to contest on lesser number of seats than Shiv Sena in the failed seat-sharing talks.

Saturday 18 October 2014

के कोई मलाल ना रह जाए..

मैं नहीं जाता अब उस जगह 
फिर भी वहां की दरकती हुई दीवारें दिखाई देती हैं
और गिरती ईंटें अभी भी चोट पहुंचाती हैं
हर बार, किसी ताजा घाव की तरह
जैसे कोई बेरहम रंजिश अपना बदला मांग रही हो
मैं नहीं जाता अब वहां
पर पाता हूँ अपने ख्यालों को भटकता हुआ
उस अनजान हो चले दायरे में
कोशिश करता हूँ की दूर जा पाऊं
और महसूस ना करूँ ये भटकाव बार बार
पर शायद, इन ख्यालों की रूह चाहती है के
कोई मलाल ना रह जाए..


के कोई मलाल ना रह जाए.. 

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey - http://severallyalone.blogspot.com

Friday 17 October 2014

THE RAINBOW IN TEARS

The rainbow in tears,
With colours of peace, 
In a pair of wet eyes,
Reflecting on so far, 
Speaking up the mind,
In harmony with soul
The learning, 
With odds of life to meet, 
The poise of living the pain,
Surviving,
Through the selfish corners, 
Breathing the indifference,
Earning the salvage, 
To be on the journey,
Lost in chaos of duplicity
Tears of joy tell the eyes,
Now is the time,
Have no more cries..


“The rainbow in tears with colours of peace in a pair of wet eyes
Reflecting on so far, speaking up the mind in harmony with soul
The learning with odds of life to meet the poise of living the pain
Surviving through the selfish corners, breathing the indifference
Earning the salvage to be on the journey lost in chaos of duplicity
The tears of joy tell the eyes, now is the time, have no more cries”

THE RAINBOW IN TEARS

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey - http://severallyalone.blogspot.com/ 

Thursday 16 October 2014

OCTOBER 16, 2014: THREE 'UNBROKEN' YEARS ON 'BEYOND THIS LIFE'

COLORES INFINITUM
October 16: My Third Blogging Milestone Day 

Yesterday, I completed three years of posting something, on a day to day rhythm, a work of mine - an article, a photograph, a quote, a poem or digital experiments on images - at least one of them every day, on this blog here, Beyond This Life, my first blog that I created on July 1, 2009. 

On October 16 in 2011, it was now some days that I had been thinking of making it a routine, a discipline, to look for 'meaningful' meanings in life after a series of huge emotional setbacks that had left me almost devastated, emotionally as well as existentially. 

I was continuing with life, yet I was not living it. Throughout my whole life till then, I had arrived at meanings of events and elements of life on my own, with my identity firmly in place. And I bought what I spoke. I lived for what I was, for what my thoughts were. 

But, the series of setbacks left me rushing for to call the meanings that had been pivotal so far. They had stopped responding. There was a nagging element of deepening mutual irrelevance. And my devastation was so acute that I was not able even to track down the meaning of the 'meanings' with the energy I was left with, even if I could. Something was killing 'a person' in me. My honestly cultivated life of 'living severally alone' was taking a severe beating, by detractors, by time, by moments, and by the people I cared for. 

But like it is said the absolute hopelessness has elements of hope in-built; that there comes the lowest point on fall beyond which the journey goes always up. 

I am yet to dissect on 'what led to', or probably I am not willing to look into at this moment, but I could see that ray of hope, I could identify those elements to pick up to enable me to be on the journey up. 

And one of those major elements was this discipline with writing and posting something daily on my blog, something that was my own creation. Before it, my blog did have entries of others, though very few in numbers, but after it, it was all mine. 

It was first on October 14 that year when I decided to begin but somehow could not post the October 15 entry in time. By the time I hit the 'publish' button, it was already October 16. But that was it. I posted another one on October 16, 2011 and it has been continued since then. 

Yes, I had no idea on how long to go with, some future roadmap on it, a timeframe for which I would like to continue doing so. To sum up, it had no ultimate goal. 

It built on day after day, week after week, month after, and then, year after year. There were small 'scales' to scale. There were small goals to achieve. There were randomly made thoughts to work on. And the events followed the continuity on the chain. With the central theme being maintaining the continuity, to have the chain remain unbroken. 


Wednesday 15 October 2014

OCTOBER 15: MY SECOND BLOGGING MILESTONE DAY

COLORES INFINITUM

Blogging Milestone Day Number 1: July 11 - when I completed 1000 days of continuous blogging in July this year - at least a blog-post a day without a break

Blogging Milestone Day Number 2: October 15 - completing three years of blogging without a break - averaging more than a post a day

Completing three years today on a journey that took a spontaneous change with no further thoughts on the roadmap ahead, driven by the only urge to look for the 'other life' in life - the journey that was to become a liberating experience, a joy to free the senses from bondages and from baggage - a learning to learn each day and keep on leaning every next day.

Completing three years today on this journey that has given me the strength of being a liberated soul who fights back and tries to overcome - day after day.

Completing three years today on the journey treasuring and assimilating the joy of creating through expressions and expressing through creations - work after work.

Completing three years today on the journey flowing on words, making the words flow, capturing life on the go, capturing motion in the moving stillness - from this genre to that.

Completing three years today on the journey, a journey of going beyond, a journey on the path to the 'oneness with the soul'.

Completing three years today, October 15, 2014, on this continued, unbroken chain on the journey that had its formal initiation on an organized platform of expression on July 1, 2009 with my first blog here, 'Beyond This Life'.

Yes, it has been a journey of experiences in thoughts ever since I started working on 'Beyond This Life' in 2009 but its more rigorous, rewarding and satisfying phase began on October 16, 2011 when I found myself embarked on a journey within 'me' that had so much to say and express. 

October 15, 2014 - its three years now from the October day in 2011 on 'Beyond This Life' and it still speaks to me in the way it had spoken to me on October 16, 2011.

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey - http://severallyalone.blogspot.com/