The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Tuesday 18 March 2014


When Narendra Modi’s candidature from Varanasi was announced, ‘thinking’ about Arvind Kejriwal jumping in the poll fray from the Temple City was the only waiting to happen.

And given the developments around the Aam Aadmi Party and Arvind Kejriwal after the audacious and shameless act of (im)morality in resigning from the Delhi government, his increasingly dictatorial style of running his party as flood of such reports and regular exodus of his party members suggest, his incessant ‘I am always right’ rant, his increasingly visible temperamental, volatile and stubborn personality and his deepening style of ‘hit and run’ politics, charging others with wild allegations (without any proof, as has become his trademark), attacking anyone who criticises him, using undemocratic words to threaten his critics (like his ‘jailing the media’ outburst), if any interest in his candidature from Varanasi was left, then it was basically about how dramatized it’s unveiling was going to be this time (though it may or may not happen when it comes to happening it finally).

And lo! The way it happened again confirmed what Arvind Kejriwal had become in just three months of being in the mainstream politics of India (or what he really was and the three months in the mainstream politics has uncovered the layers that had concealed his true identity that made many of us (including me) to think him as a different politician who could bring vital, much needed changes in the System).

In their verbal jugglery and vocal bravery, Arvind Kejriwal had announced to contest against Naredra Modi in the Lok Sabha polls. When Narendra Modi’s name was confirmed by ‘sources’, his lieutenant Manish Sisodia declared Arvind Kejriwal would take on Modi from Varanasi if indeed Modi’s candidature was confirmed from the city.

The thread was continued by Arvind Kejriwal the evening the BJP declared Modi’s name from Varanasi when the balloon of his vocal bravery inflated his cord to push him to say he would contest from Varanasi (against Narendra Modi).

But then something happened. Though, we can analyse (and can reach to a logical point of analysing), only Mr. Kejriwal can tell us what transpired in those moments that pushed him to add a rider to his proclamation of contesting against Narendra Modi from Varanasi.

He said he would announce it in AAP’s Varanasi rally to be addressed by him on March 23 (that has been rescheduled for March 25 due to the local polls in the city) after consulting the public over it.

Now we remember how Mr. Kejriwal ditched the public of Delhi after taking its approval through his ‘sms referendum’ on forming the government in Delhi. He did not do one before resigning (ideally, he must have done that).

Now for contesting from Varanasi, we do not know how he is going to take the public opinion. It is March 19 and there is no word on any ‘sms referendum’ sort of thing. Taking a voice vote of the public in his rally may be the one possible way. Let’s see how does he try to play with the ball this time?

And in all this, till his March 25 rally in Varanasi, while he travels in this thoughts and exercises his ‘strategising’ in his party’s parleys, he will always be in two minds on ‘accepting the public opinion’ or ‘shielding behind it’ to use it as the excuse for not contesting from Varanasi’.

But, he cannot backtrack now, even if it is already a lost battle for him.

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey -