The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Friday, 15 February 2013


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The security guard, on routine interrogation on how much on an average it takes for the doctor to wind up with this many of patients, tells us it would be anything around 8 PM. He further tells the doctor usually comes around 5:30/6 PM. The doctor only leaves when all the patients registered are done with and he gives due attention to every patient.

That was around 5 PM.

So another hour of wait lies further ahead. They are sitting in the lobby of the clinic. A while after it, an elderly gentleman advises the younger of them to go inside as they are the first-timers to the clinic and their names would be called to show the reports.

Thanking him for the advice (a valuable one), he goes inside. Soon after entering, he finds his name being called by another clinic assistant. The assistant gives him a small piece of paper with the number 36 written over it and asks him to show the reports of grandpa to another doctor sitting in the chamber adjacent to the registration kiosk.

He proceeds and finds that he is in queue there. The doctor inside is taking her time while talking to the visiting patient and diligently asks and writes detailed reports on patient’s medical history.

Around 5:30 PM, his number comes.

He goes inside with the reports and briefs the doctor but when he feels he cannot go back much longer into the medical history of the grandpa, he brings him in. The doctor thoroughly goes through the reports of grandpa and talks to him about the health problems he is facing. She efficiently jots down every detail and gives a case-number to the grandpa’s and fills approximately 4 pages of a small-sized booklet. They come out of the chamber after it to wait for the next step. They are now carrying the 4-page report history with them to be shown to the doctor.

That was around 6 PM.

Soon the number 36 is called. Apparently, the doctor has come or the doctors have come. The patients are advised to be in the queue in front of a room that has name plate of two doctors. The room is divided in two chambers. In a side-room with yet another chamber, there is another doctor sitting. Common to the rooms is a passageway that is not more than 2 feet wide. There also lies a washroom on the passageway that is about 2 metres long.

The waiting patients are asked to stand in queue in the passageway. He asks the grandpa to sit and wait and goes to stand in the queue. He finds he is 11th in the run to reach the celebrated homeopathy doctor of Delhi. 36th to 11th – he feels a rush of relief that is going to be short-lived.

He is standing in the queue waiting for the grandpa’s turn to come. The queue is moving with a speed that even the legendary tortoise of the ‘hare and tortoise race’ fable could not match.

There is plenty of time at hand but cannot be utilized in time-pass activities like reading a book as one cannot stand in the corridor easily. Patients visiting to the other doctors are passing through the same passageway. There is regular in and out of the assistants. Then, there are people keeping the washroom constantly engaged, one after the other – all in the passageway, 2 metres long and 2 feet wide, having 15 people cramped in it. Nor, one can use gadgets like cellphones or tablets to talk or surf the internet as the signal is too weak. 

So people are there, standing in the queue waiting for their turn to come. The immediacy and the boring moments of the long-wait initiate the natural process of socializing. People start questioning why so much of delay, why the queue is not moving at all, why no one is coming out. People begin conversation. They make comments. There are attempts to make or receive phone calls in the weak signal zone. Some of them keep asking the assistants how longer it is going to take.

Someone says the doctor gets deeply involved with his patients and such long waiting time is routine. He can see it. No problem with that.

To continue..

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