The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Tuesday, 1 January 2013



Time moves ahead. Life goes on, from a year to the next one. There is nothing groundbreaking in it except the opportunity on the timeline of life to retrospect to introspect, that a passing year gives.

Nothing changes in your life during the December 31 to January 1 transition. Time moves on with every passing day.

But psychologically and intellectually, completion of a year gives you the point where you can, and you need to take a look back to go ahead.

Indeed, it is an event where one can take stock of his accumulated thoughts of moments of introspection, to look at them retrospectively.

For him, a change in the calendar entries for a defined cluster of time is that opportunity.

It was a year for him when he could successfully be on the path to reclaim his ‘self’. After a disaster of March 2010 that had left the life of his family badly altered, he and other family members are positively on the way to make things better. Yes, the emotional loss can never be regained but for other things, they are much more confident now.

His family won the first leg of court fight last year in the case responsible for that emotional loss. The victory came after many nervous moments. But there is long fight ahead through the tedious and intertwined alleys of the Indian judiciary.

Personally, he felt enriched. He wrote regularly. He read regularly. He could read some good works. He could write on different issues.

He could travel in the time available. Travelling gave him a concept that he is building further with a friend. It is to further his travelling.

He watched some really good movies, documentaries and short films from the world cinema. He feels good every-time when he adds a ‘masterpiece title’ to his growing personal library and passing year gave him many such moments.

He could initiate the work for his initiatives. Though, the intense activity on developing the initiatives in the beginning of the year had to be softened due to the court case, he was able to maintain the required momentum. And he has already marked the launch events.

He could learn from all the activities throughout the year.

Personally and emotionally, it is also two years to the day he had lost a person in him who happened to be his call for every decision. He was withdrawn and lost for long. Slowly and gradually, he emerged from it.

And he realizes he is stronger now because there are no ill feelings and negative thoughts. He has been able to reconcile with the loss by learning to live with it like it happens in every emotional loss (that had become the inseparable part of the thought process). He knows he is his ‘self’ now that he used to be before he started ignoring it.

Writing, travelling and reading have been instrumental in his fight to get his ‘self’ back he realizes now. He has been able to go inside. He has been able to see the light he was seeking.

It was a year of learning for him. And he knows it has to be a year of learning for him.

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey -