The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Sunday, 30 December 2012



Midst all the intense talks of legal reforms and judicial reform after the Delhi gangrape, he thinks thoughtfully about the court case and legal battle in his life.

After a consistently pursued court trial for over 30 months, he has been able to secure justice at the district court, and that too, thanks to an honest judge, otherwise the developments were more on the discouraging side. The judgement sentenced the three accused with life imprisonment for murdering his brother-in-law.

But, for him, it is just the beginning of a winding judicial process in India. There are courts and courts and there are levels and levels. The process stresses that any innocent should not be punished and gives the right to judicial remedy till the Supreme Court’s decision. It would be logical if there were a time-frame to it but given the trend where it takes years for a criminal to be finally punished, it becomes the most illogical aspect for the victims.

While doing some research to hire a good lawyer at the high court, he came across comments where it was said he was lucky that he could get the judgement from the district court so early. So early?

Then what is the need of such an intense debate on judicial expediency and leniency? Why are we now talking on the point that it is the delay in the judicial process that encourages the criminal elements to go berserk?

How comfortably have we forgotten the age-old proven commandment that ‘the justice delayed is justice denied’?

Then there are other discouraging remarks. Recurring one among them was that sooner or later, the convict would get bail from the high court. The observation, in their wisdom, says since the accused were on bail during the trial phase at the district court, they are ‘claimants’ of getting bail from the high court till the time high court decides on the case. The logic, according to them, is it takes many years for a high court to decide on a case, so the courts, usually, grant bail.

He doesn’t know how much of it is true but being the common observation by most of the lawyers, it leaves him thinking.

Doesn’t it matter for the Indian judicial process to differentiate between a convict and an accused? In his case, earlier they were accused, now they are convicts; convicts, who even tried to threaten him during the trial phase at the lower court.

How can such an attitude be justified in a brutal murder case?

Why so much of concern for the perpetrators and not for the victims?

Many lawyers said the point that he had received many threatening calls during the trial at the district court was not strong enough a point. Is it true? What else then it takes for the judicial system to wake up?

There are many questions in his mind, revisited after the demand of judicial reforms over the Delhi gangrape case. But there are no clear answers except the negative pointers.

And all he knows there is fight ahead and he needs to be prepared.

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey -