The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Monday, 3 December 2012



Tomorrow is an important day in his fights against what you call destiny or fate’s travesty with his and his family’s life.

After his family won the court case at the district court, one of the three convicts has approached the high court for appeal and bail. The case is listed for hearing tomorrow.

The current developments around it give him an eerie similarity to what happened at the high court during the trial phase of the case at the district court more than two years ago.

Then, a lawyer, whom he had engaged, had duped him by keeping him unaware of the movement of the main accused for bail at the high court after the district had cancelled it. Apart from some monetary dealings, the caste of the main accused (same to that of the lawyer) was one major reason that made the lawyer dupe him.

Now this time, the caste is not a factor, but still there are developments that are making him think otherwise.

He had spoken to the clerk of this lawyer on Saturday where he was informed by the clerk that the case was yet to be listed. Now today, he got a call that the hearing is slated for tomorrow. When he crossed checked the facts, he came to know that the case was listed on Friday itself. Also the lawyer, though he had been recommended by some people known to him, keeps focusing more on negative aspects of the judgement and never talks in affirmative when it is asked if the convicts would not get bail now.

Anyway, let’s see what happens. Though there are contradicting versions on whether the convicts would get bail, he is thinking of the days ahead now. He knows there are equal chances of them getting the bail as the case is based on circumstantial evidence and it all depends on how the sitting judge interprets the circumstances.

This is our legal system where a victim family, who had seen one of the family pillars murdered brutally, is forced to make known and unknown, conscious and unconscious calculations, even if the memories of the departed keep on grinding bringing those occasional tears regularly.

And there are no takers for those tears in this selfish age. Thankfully, he doesn’t expect and doesn’t allow anyone for that now.

Whatever that happens tomorrow, he knows he is ready to fight it out even at this court. 

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey -