The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Monday, 29 October 2012



At some point of time in the recent past of my life, it was just in passing during a fine day of the Jaipur Literature Festival (JLF)*. I was sitting in the media lobby though I was there purely on a personal visit. I had thought to observe things in the silence that an active profile would not have permitted.

Though I had no personal favourites there scheduled to hold the session that day, it was good to sit in the lobby and have small chit-chats with the authors coming over there for small breaks.

The lobby was almost in front of the main pavilion of the JLF at the Diggi Palace hotel, so it gave a good view of the sessions going on in there as well. An added advantage!

That session in progress during the day was sounding something off the guard and so I was in my thoughts driven away from the fake hullabaloo of the surrounding crowd.

Due to the certain proximate events in life, my thoughts were centered on value propositions in life. Circumstances had played with me strangely (and negatively) but I had successfully tried to remain straight forward and the similar thoughts prevail to this day.

Suddenly, a voice pulled my attention. Some gentlemen were talking on ‘Difficulty of Being Good’ by Gurcharan Das and the author was among them. The book is a different perspective on Mahabharata, one of the two principal sacred books of Hinduism (the other one is Ramayana) pondering over the questions of existence in the backdrop of events culminating in a great war, in context of the human psyche of prevailing on good values away from the clutches of immoral overtures. I had read the book only some days ago.

I was pounding on good and bad aspects in my life and reflection of my thoughts over them when I overheard them discussing good and bad in life in general.

Though, not even in the remote possible way the book had affected my thoughts, I was naturally attracted to the discussion given the subject matter. I could not correlate to the book but there were some nagging questions. I thought to pose them to Mr. Das when I could get him sitting alone.

To my moments of comfort, soon I had the moment. For all his work related to the ‘Dharma’ (the moral guide) of different aspects in life, it was natural for me to talk to him on some more dose of Dharma, to see if it really works.

My questions were on the desperation or urge to be good or to say like not extending even the slightest of the harm to anyone (If you see being good is like acting godly these days and so think it makes you look sham, always a silly thought!). The good thing for me was the deliberations were on my line of thoughts. But the not so good thing was I found too little scope in going further.

Being good is not about having some profound wisdom about do’s and don’ts of ethics in life. It is about living the truth of the smaller moments to sooth your conscience first and then to emulate them on the larger canvas. It is about living YOU.

Such questions are qualitative in nature and I know they do not have direct answers or probably no answers (the millions of answers for the millions of souls).

Accept the universally accepted definition of good in life (the value proposition) and live them in your context. Do this and you are there. 

The discussion didn’t last long and how could it be in the frenzy of glamour and managed publicity. Though I wanted to include the Ramayana in the context of the ‘difficulty of being good’, when Mr. Das said he was not much aware of the Ramayana, even I had no point to sit further.

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey -

*Jaipur Literature Festival, held annually in Jaipur, India, has grown up to become a global literature festival featuring Nobel Laureates and host of other luminaries from the ‘globalized’ world of literature; a literature festival where literature has been pushed somewhere to the fringes to meet the demands of marketing.