Life & Beyond : BUT I KNOW WHO I AM

The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Saturday, 17 December 2011

BUT I KNOW WHO I AM

I may not know where I am

I may not know where headed I am

But I know who I am

I may not touch the wind

I may not soak the rain

I may not feel the Zen

I may not end up in the heaven

But I know I am not afraid anymore

Excruciating, reverberating, rejuvenating

Moments had their breathe squeezing

When they saw the disaster impending

Moments sang the song of the thrill

The voice became softer devoid of any shrill

I stand there, quiet,

To wage another fight

Moments reckon of the looming night

Inviting me

To the darkness of uncertainty

But I know

I am still there

For your smile of serenity

And,

I will zoom past this night

I may not know where I am

I may not know where headed I am

But I know who I am

Its stranger still!

Life, a loser, calls, says! Behold

Let's fight again,

For the sake of romance of fighting

For the joy of adventure of losing

Its stranger still!

Life recalls, says! Listen

We have been the bedfellows

Always fighting

Never thinking of going away

You see your win I see mine

You claim your survival

I claim my revival

I have been there, listening

To all, it says, sifting

Through, what it means

Assimilating what it aims

Reading what it failed to name

I know through its odd sways

I will, again, find my ways

I know I am the one, whom

I have been looking for

Though

I may not know where I am

I may not know where headed I am

But I know who I am

Life, you say I was mismatched

And there,

You so deliberately crashed

O’ your materialist ways, with

Layers of assorted ambiguities

I was there, I am there, I will be there

With all my ‘too’ simplistic ethos and mores

That you found so hard to believe

That,

You went on to the extent, to

Deceive

O’ life, but

Isn’t it your way to go?

A flow, marked with

Such dismay

That you ceased to exist for me

I won’t take anymore of your artificial beauty

I won’t listen to anymore of your cacophonous eloquence

I won’t be deceived anymore by your innocent look

I won’t be betrayed anymore by duality of your words

For,

I reclaimed who I was and who I need to be

I know I am through this important learning

I may not know where I am

I may not know where headed I am

But I am now on the way to be me

For I know who I was

For I know who I am going to be!

March 28, 2011

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey - http://severallyalone.blogspot.com/