The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Wednesday 9 November 2011


LIFE - COLORES INFINITUM: I am beginning this column on my blog to share real time stories of real characters – stories that colour life – give it a meaning – give it a thought – without making any visible attempt – without seeking any reason – without seeking any change – they are here to tell the tale – after all, WE ALL ARE STORIES WAITING TO BE TOLD – and we may be our very own special audience. J


February 2011 to November 2011 – almost 25 court hearings – just two statements recorded – and that, too, after non-bailable warrants were issued. The pathetic story of the lower courts of India – what can be said about the situation in higher courts where gap between two hearings is long!

He knew it but had not experienced it. He knows the feel of the experience now. He sincerely attends the court on every hearing even if no hearing takes place, something that happens on most of the dates, continuing his fight to get justice; continuing his fight to get the accused meet their due who, in a shocking moment took away almost all, by killing someone like a pillar in the family. Of nothing but he’s confident of his confidence in himself though he knows chances of getting the next date on any date of hearing are as high as 75%. He believes in the 25% and knows will get his due in coming few months. He’s well aware of the case backlog in the Indian courts and now realizes what could be the one major contributing reason. Witnesses do not appear on time and no sincere efforts are made to rectify the anomaly.

Sometimes, even during the hearing he observes that accused are not in the accused box. They are called to come-in when someone reminds of their absence. He witnesses how some of the officials ask this murder accused to bring water or furnish some green papers. He witnesses how this murder accused smiles as if he’s confident he’s going to walk free. He witnesses how this murder accused keeps on making threatening calls and gestures in-spite of written complaints to the court.

He witnesses the mockery of the system by the system itself. He is waiting. He is fighting. He is arguing. He is cautious. And he is confident.

This is my story and I know it is not the standalone case. I will fight it out and I pray for all to get their dues.