The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Monday 28 March 2011


I may not know where I am
I may not know where headed I am
But I know who I am

I may not touch the wind
I may not soak the rain
I may not feel the Zen
I may not end up in the heaven
But I know I am not afraid anymore

Excruciating, reverberating, rejuvenating
Moments had their breathe squeezing
When they saw the disaster impending
Moments sang the song of the thrill
The voice became softer devoid of any shrill

I stand there, quiet,
To wage another fight
Moments reckon of the looming night
Inviting me
To the darkness of uncertainty
But I know
I am still there
For your smile of serenity
I will zoom past this night

I may not know where I am
I may not know where headed I am
But I know who I am

Its stranger still!
Life, a loser, calls, says! Behold
Let's fight again,
For the sake of romance of fighting
For the joy of adventure of losing

Its stranger still!
Life recalls, says! Listen
We have been the bedfellows
Always fighting
Never thinking of going away

You see your win I see mine
You claim your survival
I claim my revival
I have been there, listening
To all, it says, sifting
Through, what it means
Assimilating what it aims
Reading what it failed to name

I know through its odd sways
I will, again, find my ways
I know I am the one, whom
I have been looking for
I may not know where I am
I may not know where headed I am
But I know who I am

Life, you say I was mismatched
And there,
You so deliberately crashed
O’ your materialist ways, with
Layers of assorted ambiguities
I was there, I am there, I will be there
With all my ‘too’ simplistic ethos and mores
That you found so hard to believe
You went on to the extent, to

O’ life, but
Isn’t it your way to go?
A flow, marked with
Such dismay
That you ceased to exist for me

I won’t take anymore of your artificial beauty
I won’t listen to anymore of your cacophonous eloquence
I won’t be deceived anymore by your innocent look
I won’t be betrayed anymore by duality of your words
I reclaimed who I was and who I need to be
I know I am through this important learning

I may not know where I am
I may not know where headed I am
But I am now on the way to be me
For I know who I was
For I know who I am going to be!

Thursday 24 March 2011

बरस गुजरा

"बरस गुजरा 
तुम्हे देखे हुए 
जानते हैं 
तुम्हे न आना है 
बरस गुजरा 
तुम्हारी आस में 
लम्हे गिराते हुए 
वो लम्हा बनाते हुए"

(March 24, 2010 to March 24, 2011)

Monday 14 March 2011


Mad rush of news elements and angles!

Some say it won't hurt Japan much economically; some say Japan is going to suffer heavily. Thousands of deaths!
Ongoing debate on nuclear energy at this hour!
Statistical pundits out with all the tools to assess the resilience of the Japanese as well as the world's economy at this hour, saying it is robust enough!
Presenting facts showing how some major disasters in past have produced good growth figures of economy in the subsequent years!
Scandals and Naoto Kan and how the disaster postponed his departure but the day is not far!
Assessment of Kan's disability to rally his people at this hour like Winston Churchill did!
Every minute changing and confusing reports of status of Japan's quake affected nuclear reactors!
Nuclear reactors of an operator with a syndromic past!
A week after, scenario still not clear, with two Hydrogen blasts!
Death toll is rising, calamity is spreading!
Stories of survival and stories of scare and the overall sensationalization!
And then a volcano erupts in Japan!
Without going for its real time assessment, air waves declare a triple whammy for Japan!
Different sorts of pundits ruling the air spaces!
Amidst all this comes the badlands of Gaddafi's Libya!
Yes, Gaddafi's Libya as he is winning back what he lost recently and is out with a vengeance!
A vengeance to inflict as much suppression and torture as he can!
So the news of arrests, disappearances and assassinations!
Conditions in Bahrain worsening - geopolitical concerns here decide to chip-in!
Saudis decide to intervene overtly leaving Iranians scrambling for options!
Pro- and anti-US sentiments with murkier games of regional supremacy in full swing!!
World community is doing what it does most of the time---lip service!
Obama doesn't find a point where he can decide on his decision about Libya
And we could so easily find a Peace Nobel Laureate in him!!
We’ve a fractured world community with equally fractured United Nations Security Council!
Why be the world captive to the whims and fancies of just five countries or idiosyncrasy of even one??
The VETO needs to be scrapped!
Nature needs to be respected and taken care of!
Sloganeering of 'Mother Nature' must turn into reality!
Incidents like Japan’s quake and Tsunami are slap in our faces and a consistent reminder of our inability as well as greed to exploit as much as we can irrespective of how intensely the ‘Mother Nature’ bleeds!!
Humanity must come first.
The Nature giving us our very own existence must come first.
The antagonists of an action by the world community on Libya must be VETOED!!
Mad rush may be the initial response!
Real time assessment must follow.

(With some modifications on March 15)

Friday 11 March 2011


  • Japan's widening Tsunami: nature inflicts again!
  • The catastrophe in the form of Japan quake----how is it going to affect the Libyan war of freedom? ----Gaddafi will do all to leverage the reduced attention of the world community now----let's pray that not to happen!!
  • All seems like the extreme hell!
  • The real assessment of the scale and the extent of damage will take some time!
  • The disturbed poise of nature – it’s global indeed and nature will let us know it in the coming days!
  • We all need to take note of it seriously-it’s the time!
  • It’s cyclical and the process of evolution is not beyond the 'law of average' like 'we are not'----yes, the realization and its timing have always been the differentiators----and the underlying fact is we've seldom realized! So we have Tsunamis and we are bound to have the random variations of more of them!!
  • And it’s becoming clearer by each passing day. We have seen onslaught of nature's fury in last two decades and that was never foreseen of. Our weather forecast systems miserably fails, only the degree varies---be it of a third world country or of an elite one.
  • Primarily we may not be wrong but that is just the primitive thinking of taking from nature with no limits at a time when we are looking at grave danger of being outrun by the resources; when we talk of the next world war for water!!
  • The ongoing political tomfoolery on environment talks, be it the Earth summits, or the global warming or climate summits or biodiversity summits, does just one thing----long extended parleys, throngs of protestors outside the summit venue----in the end just to reach at a point where either the talks fail or highly customized interest-oriented seemingly unachievable path is defined to follow.
  • Rhetoric and rhetoric only and it continues----the bane of confused geopolitics!!
  • We are the confused, jittery, aggravated-mind intellectuals who try to scale the space yet miserably fail when it comes to the primary understanding of the Base.      


We are staring at an extreme here and at stake is the trust in the trust system, for we all need to believe in it. The SC is to hear the bail plea of Dr Sen today. The decision may, may not come today. We need to believe the quest will find its lost trajectory here. And, at the same time, we need to think about that 'if'. What if we get again a 'no'?

Okay, we would have an option to appeal. But the already shaken trust will take a jolt again, that may be highly frustrating, for, we are now in the apex court of the land, and the options of the gateways to 'get-heard' are almost exhausted!

Lets ponder. Let's get pensive. For, it’s the time.

Wednesday 2 March 2011

My dear Extremes

I have gone to those extremes 
That I never welcome dreams 
I feel agin
Breaking inside 
I get back to my shell 
My soul,
Scrambles to get my calm 
O' that fleeting calm, 
In those unperturbed moments, 
Stuck to the handicap of the frivolity, 
Its worth it, 
It leads me back,
To my eternal chaos 
This beauty of chaos, 
To bury me inside, 
Has a beauty of its own, 
To connect me to that fleeting calm 
Taking me 
Far and wide
For a ride, 
To revisit all those extremes, 
To remind me of the foreplay of the dreams
I feel the need, 
To get soaked, 
O' my soul,
In those extremes
My dear Extremes