The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Monday, 14 June 2010


The most certain event in life is also the most uncertain one.
We die but we never know when.
And we always try to run away from the only perceivable truth of our existence.

Life has been rendered with terms like pain, suffering, consciousnesses, self ‘external us’ ‘internal us’, knowable, unknowable, ‘scientific modalities and spiritual ramifications’ and many more, all linked to the god ‘self’ or an entity said to be sometimes ‘within us’ sometimes ‘beyond us’.

Why do we make ‘religious, spiritual’ or some ‘beyond normal’ references and connotations whenever we discuss, think or mention god?

It is said a god cares for its followers at every step. It cries with its followers whenever they cry. We are said to be followers when we accept whatever that happened in the pursuit of coming out of this pain and misery. Thus, the faith that had started shaking, starts coming back.

Isn’t it believing in something supernatural for the sake of coming out of the pain and accepting the life as it was, not thinking why it was so, why of this ‘why’ and what it can be?

What about questions (very pertinent ones) that had cropped up naturally again to be watered down by a system of belief that we inherit mostly?

We once again allow that rare opportunity of life to forego our claim to know the real truth of existence, if there can be any!

We talk of material and spiritual but we have plenty of writings and sayings that define material as beginning of the journey to the spiritual. So the material is not separated from the spiritual. The difference is just the relative one. Hinduism is perfect example. Vivekananda justified idol worship and thousands of deities at the World Congress of Religions in Chicago with this very tenet.

We have created contradictions and contradictions.

If god is within us, how can it be beyond us?

If we can feel god by looking inside us, why can’t we find it outside us when it resides in every minutest entity of this ‘creation’?

Whatever that happens is for good and ‘god-given’ and yet we ascribe events with terms like ‘pain and suffering’ and look to god to relieve us!

It is said everything except god is delusion including our very own existence and yet we say that entity is nowhere else but within us. Don’t we deny its existence then?

The most talked about and the most agreed upon universal religious tenet is ‘there is one supreme entity or almighty and we all submerge into that losing our identities’. It is said the ultimate goal is to be on that path and remember it begins from us. It is said we come from it and we go to it. How can it be ‘maya’ then?

Post-modernism may be a word of recent history but it is ingrained in the human civilization since its very inception. We see and perceive things, try to describe them in order to develop or not to develop some sort of alignment. The basic psychological dilemma of reaching ‘anyhow’ to an aligned state of mind with conflict creating incidents running parallel to our existence leads us to accommodate whatever is happening. We don’t agree to but we accept it in the name of ‘god’?

But why?

We seldom get answers and we keep on believing.

If god is within us, why can’t it manifests in a common perceivable form, if not always, then at moments, when you really need it, and not forcing you to accept a situation just in its name?

Why can’t it give you the soul healing with your questions answered? And, at most of the moments, it is not able to give you that ‘healing feeling’.

God cannot be seen, but can be felt, but even this psychological need remains unfulfilled most of the times when it is needed the most.

Some may agree. Most will disagree. But aren’t these questions that we need to find answers?

Relativity of certainty of death and uncertainty of life and the intertwined conundrum of thoughts that leads us to raise questions!

But, again, relativity of raising questions and seeking answers is highly screwed in favour of the former!