The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Sunday, 13 September 2009


What can be one of the most shocking news? Certainly death forms one of its categories. Unexpected deaths or massacres have been the regulars. But what about mercenaries of death who inflict unscalable damage beyond capacity of any massacre or genocide.

The unbelievably believable shocking news of HIV+ blood transfusion to six children in a small town, Anupgarh, in Sriganganagar, Rajasthan was doing round in media and hence social conscious recently. These six children were just few names from a clutter of our population that inhabit the bottom of social pyramid, the largest and most neglected human capital in India, the place that started a sovereign journey with a ‘so-called’ socialist agenda 62 years ago. The only saving grace is five of these children were tested HIV- later on.

A medical lab and a nursing home of Anupgarh were found guilty in the case where two children died in a week after blood transfusion. Probe of the case is on. All other shops in the area have downed their shutters only to resume committing their heinous and pervert activity again once the glare of probe and investigation and media interest abate. And we need to accept the interest has abated in just two weeks. And it is not just these mercenaries who are culprits; we have chains of pervert stories behind every such move to flourish in the society; in societies across. Anupgarh, the border town in Rajasthan notorious for being a transit spot for fake currency and weapons smuggling, is again one of the many faceless criminal syndicates involved in illicit trade of life.

We cannot have saving grace all the time. Around the same time, another blood trading racket was busted in Lucknow after police raid on half-a-dozen private hospitals and medical labs in the city. The dubious duplicity was made to be original with work on finer details like using wrappers of registered hospitals and blood banks, saline bottles, syringes. Police also suspect involvement of some employees of the prestigious King George Medical College of the city. Every possible manipulation was done here. It is almost utopian to think such killers would conduct mandatory tests before collecting blood units. They treaded the extra mile by diluting the blood to increase volume and placing any blood group sticker as and when they had to sell a particular blood group unit. What is more worrying here is police estimates that over one lakh people might have been affected by using blood channelized through this racket.

Someone with basic knowledge knows its repercussions, human body cannot accept unmatched blood units and if the racket was flourishing for so long, we can only think about the damage already inflicted.

Here we need to identify where the fault line lies. Every district or development block has a presiding health superior with network of officials working at village and block levels. Let’s put aside India’s poor health infrastructure for a while. According to some reports India has one doctor for every 10,000 of its population while hospital beds availability is just a little over 0.7 hospital beds per 1000 population whereas the world average is 3.96 hospital beds per 1000 population. This negative indicator at least may have a positive lever here. With this small number of facilities, even if we include the private players, the monitoring and supervision could have been ensured in a more organized way to discourage such practice. On the contrary, here the malaise starts. Just have a visit to any of the govt hospital in the national capital and you are bound to witness the stink that will make you run away at that instant if you had not any compulsion. Mid-tier and small towns have a Pandora box of horrible tales with govt health infrastructure and collusion of govt health officials and private players involving doctors and lab owners. Lure of some easy bucks and increasing population and awareness among people to approach hospitals was an ideal diversion ground when all this might have started. Gradually it has become a monster that if not checked would be the most prolific HIV/AIDS precursor in the country.