The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Sunday, 19 July 2009


What will happen to Prof Sabharwal’s case when it goes to Supreme Court, no one knows. A fear of loosing the battle seems imminent given the past when right to justice of a commoner was crushed against those with deeper outreach in power corridors. A sense of déjà vu has already started creeping in.

The way Prof Sabharwal was treated by mongrels blinded by power and audacity, reflected subsequently in his death and what followed in the aftermath. Aftermath as it has given a trauma to every sensible mind, every soul to lament more for unexplained loss of the soul of humanity once again. Humanity had died one more of its innumerable eternal deaths.

Sabharwals, Nitharis, fodder scams, hawalas, many Manjunaths, Surendra Dubes, Priyadarshini Mattoos, Madhumitas, Jessica Lals and Nitish Kataras..........and still this is just the tip of the iceberg..........such registered and unregistered cases are manifold. They are not able to reach to the level of the priming content for the 24*7 nation integrating communicators. Fashion weeks, celebrity marriages, gossips, scandals have adopted a characteristically high visibility, but where is the common Indian, the lowest but the unit denominator.

Muckrakers are a rare breed now and we have collectively created this pathetic scenario. Can we talk of and boast of values, culture, tradition and a rich heritage? Someone, some years back, sacrificed his life just for some of these words but these were not just words for him. He lived these and transformed a nation. Now we are only politicking. More than 200 million of Indians are still living over Rs 12 a day and this is just a part of large and wide base (legacy) of our BPL, ignored masses.

Nothing is bizarre when it comes to deal with politicians of the day. But there was this feeling that given the high profile nature of the case and the related media glare, the state machinery would act responsibly, if not voluntarily, compulsion to survive and political equations for BJP would lead to some positive outcome this time after two consecutive electoral losses and a seemingly dismal future. But the wheel proved itself wrong. Rather we had statements like ‘bygones are bygones’ and celebration visuals of the accused after the acquittal verdict.

Are we cursed to see the rise of the cursed? True, optimism and pessimism run simultaneously but we can never predict which one prevails and for how long. What is the way out? Ideally it can be said it is up to us if we are willing to keep the fight on fighting incessantly till a change can be placed in place. Pragmatically we need to be comfortable with the cost that we would pay and at the same time realizing that we all are fallible. We need to be ready for this mental trauma. But we need to fight on, there is no other way.