COLORES INFINITUM
It is always between 'what
changes from one calendar day to the next' and 'every day is a new day, a
reservoir of hopes, a new opportunity to do, undo or redo things'.
And it is always better to go with
the later one - every day is a new day and every day is a new 'you'.
Welcome 2016. Adieu 2015.
Reflect on. Retrospect.
Introspect.
To reflect on the days ahead. To
recharge yourself. With this symbolic milestone.
A symbolic milestone that comes
every year.
It is for you to look at it - so why
won't we do it in a positive, uplifting mode?
Yes, life is very unpredictable -
and so are its difficulties - with moments that let you down - with letdowns
that lock you in an inertia.
But pragmatism tells to always
look ahead - at the point beyond that letdown. It is only you who can break the
run of inertia in your life - it is only you
who can win over the psychological entrapments that you have built
around yourself.
Life's experiences should tell us
that there is no substitute, no alternative, but to fight back - when life is
dragging you down. Kill those jinxes that work to darken your path.
After all, apart from your
family, who else stands with you emotionally? Everyone else either has a
fleeting attention to the problems your are facing or a 'knack' to exploit you
more in your hours of crisis.
Anyway, that was about migrating
from one year to the next - here in this case, from December 31, 2015 to
January 1, 2016.
So..what has been my account of
the year?
Diversified. Challenging. With my
share of highs and lows. With my problems and with my triumphs. Like it happens
in every life.
The many things that I had
thought to do this year - some of them I could do - some of them are works in
progress - and some of them are in advanced stages of ideation - and some of
them are in still pipeline - something that always happens - in every life
- and I have learnt to enjoy it this way.
I successfully developed my
personal website this year - which I treat as my web journal - and so far, I
have been engaged with it looks and progress. I had taken the domain name last
year but the development with a professional touch came this year - and it was
in sync with what I had thought when I was beginning 2015.
While reflecting back on 2014 on
December 31 last year, I had decided that I would devote more time to my books
and would limit my online publishing activity to once a day. Now, when I am
reflecting back on 2015, on a December 31 exactly one year later, I am already
more than a post a day - so far 431 posts this year in 364 days with this
December 31 yet to go.
2015 was the fourth consecutive
year on my writing and publishing pledge when I could maintain the discipline
of writing or creating something daily - something that I had begun on October
15, 2011 - though with a random thought - with no long terms goals - but with
'every day' convictions.
I still have no goals. My driver
is the sense of satisfaction that I draw after creating something from
discipline of doing it daily.
Yes, I regret that I could not
work that much on my books as I had thought, but what is relieving is that I know
that why I could not do so and that I would do something concrete with them in
the days to come.
Like I have been doing with my
writing and with my creativity, I could do all that I needed to - with
diversity as the leitmotif - in articles, in essays, in poetry, in images, in
quotes, in fiction.
All that I have been through in
2015 I cannot write here and I should not write here, but while moving to the
next year with the symbolic importance of January 1 - of 'newness and hope' - I
have no bad feeling about how 2015 passed - but good reasons to look ahead and
positive energy to work further.