The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Thursday, 21 November 2013


Sometimes, it is really disgusting to be the slaves of the worldly ‘ifs’ and ‘buts’.

It is true we all have to have and have this compromising attitude. At times, we follow it, - voluntarily or involuntarily, this discourse is an altogether different domain of our cognitive abilities.

The truth that is universally true, we become party to it, and it happens throughout the life.

Life is not lived in extremes. One’s living is not survived by the absolute interpretation of events. This is the generic mode a life adopts on its journey. And its generalization is unequivocally universal.

We make compromises, for us, for our people, and sometimes, for others, as the circumstances prevail.

But, there has to be a limit. There has to be enough of it. Taking a stand on an issue and thus subscribing to the humane conscience in you may be painful initially but is wholesome and healthy in the long run.

When, with a progressing age, one’s priorities change and correspond more to the mental faculties and its spiritual overtures, if not to the spiritual overtures, then to the questions on existence and identity, the memories of when you challenged the pressure, when you didn’t bow down before circumstances to make compromises, anoint you and take you on a journey of life that reflects more of your thoughts on the path.

We need to realize how to gauge our dependence on life’s ‘ifs’ and ‘buts’ to steer clear of the compulsions and compromises that ultimately make us slave of the events, pawns of the destiny.

Doing so is in us. Realizing it is in our conscience. Corresponding to it is in our soul.

The only differentiator is how well we can read our conscience, how well we can befriend it and how far we can go to be objective with it.

It is the measure of you being ‘You’.

(Context: Tarun Tejpal’s atonement letters that sounds so utterly misplaced!) 

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