The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Monday, 12 November 2012



Relations and their ways are strange. They represent the central theme of one’s existence continuum. They make you and they break you. They touch you and they tear into you. They make you dependent. They make you a liberated soul. The colours are simply overwhelming leaving you enlightened or leaving you shattered. I had a discussion with a friend today that randomly took some similar shades. Thought to share it and putting here some random parts from the conversation. (A1 is the friend; A2 is for me).

A1: are you?
A2: Fine, every day is a new tell me..

A1: I am ok..tough..fragile, both at the same time..
A2: we all are..kabhi aisa (like this)..kabhi vaisa (like that)..

A1: the name of karma sidhdhantha we die also..
A2: Yes..and it somehow tells us that at least we are true bosses somewhere if not anywhere..then on our own physical manifestations..

A1: We are bosses on neglecting our health..interesting..
A2: Yes, we do that all the time..

A1: We feel we can only dominate that..what we eat..etc..what we do with our body..
A2: Yes, at least perceptibly..

A1: Its dangerous in a way..kind of mania..
A2: we all are maniacs too..

A1: Yes the way we succumb to every healthy and unhealthy in a way mania only..but how does one explain that is the chemical much that it makes you disown your own body and torture that..
A2: There are many things beyond explanations..and they only sustain life to move know do more..the romance of the unknown..

A1: To learn more and after all objective..
A2: Learning is and has to be inherent with doing..otherwise it isn’t learning..

A1: Yes..moving on should NOT be fleeing on..
A2: Never

A1: Yes
A2: People become escapist in difficult moments..they not only betray themselves..but also choke lives of others associated with them..

A1: Very-very that every moment..from the most adorable people once..
A2: Human relations are most enigmatic..complex and simple..

A1: Hahha
A2: Beauty is in predictable unpredictability and its perceptible objectivity..the less you feel unpredictable about a relation, the more you feel at one with it..

A1: What about when we feel predictable..and others feel unpredictable and your prediction is neglected and great loss happens..
A2: Yes..relations move like this only..

A1: Always at the cost of someone or some loss..
A2: YES..but many don’t realize it even then..

A1: That also happens in many cases I guess..why is that..they don’t want to see..or don’t have guts to face it..
A2: Don’t have guts..and they feel at loss..

A1: Hmmm
A2: And the loss eats them up..

A1: Hmmm..happens..but they don’t give that decision-making power also to some other..what’s wrong in accepting defeat at something and stay back and let whatever that’s good to avoid loss be done..
A2: Because they probably never know what it takes to be committed in relations..whatever category they are in..loss is always a misnomer for pushes more into more of negativity..

A1: That’s true..what the others can do..who can’t be of any help..either in saving or anything..
A2: Such people shut themselves up..

A1: We can’t do much I guess..
A2: We should not..we all have to prevail individually in life..we cannot accord after a point and we should not..because..after that is like betraying your ‘self’ is life..lowering your own conscience..

A1: Betraying ourselves? How? Yes that’s there..we have to stoop so low..compromise on values..
A2: If the escapist is not ready to listen to anything..if the escapist is blinded by the temporary onslaught of the negative thoughts..

A1: Hmm
A2: And you keep on advising or..trying to show the way..or even trying to be with..

A1: Yes
A2: It sends wrong signals..

A1: Long term rehab that?
A2: And consistent denials might leave you with negative thoughts as well..mental imbalances are a separate thing..but for normal is as a point on the line..beyond that it has to emanate from within..otherwise there is no use..advices might work..

A1: Hmm
A2: But it will always be the new-age terms, vibes and all..terms that define life nuances of a generation more than the solid fundamentals..

A1: Hmm..true..they might..attack the advisor also..verbally..they will find a target..
A2: Yes

A1: Even if on the suffering person..a family and a generation has its foundation
A2: All that is crumbling, changing now..and like every generational has negatives and positives both..the evolution will decide what prevails..

A1: Sometimes addictions decides what prevails..human being or wastage..of a continual efforts..
A2: Yes, its all on a existential continuum..

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